The Process is a Balancing Act
Finding the right medication combination is a process and sometimes it sucks. I have spent the last 30+ days going through multiple medication adjustments; coming off of one, starting another, stopping due to side-effects, starting another new one and then ultimately adding the one back I was on to begin with. The process is exhausting both mentally and physically. But, there is light at the end of the tunnel. As frustrating as it has been, I finally feel alive again. The new
The Magic of the Holidays Came Back!
It has been one year and fifteen days since I began taking an additional pill each day. That one pill gave me my life back; in fact, this year has been one of the best I can remember in a long time. It was also one of the first years that I have felt good for the holiday season. In prior years, the one thing I wanted for Christmas was something that nobody could buy me — the feeling of peace and happiness. However, this year I went into the holidays feeling content, happy an
The Weight of Depression
Depression is heavy. It weighs you down both mentally and physically. It slows your mind and body and makes you feel like you are moving in slow motion. Depression is also heavy because weight gain often accompanies it. When I was younger I guess I had a better metabolism and a more active lifestyle, so I never gained too much weight despite my severe depression. That's not the case anymore. None of my medicines cause weight gain thankfully, however my year-long depression di
"Wherever You Go, There You Are"
10 years. A decade of my life. In May, that’s how long it will be that I have lived in the Tri-State area. It’s really hard to believe that much time has gone by. I think back 10 years and remember I was a 22-year-old who couldn’t wait to move to New York City and live her dream. At that time, the dream was leaving my small town (as fast as possible!), reinventing myself, finding a great job, becoming a high-powered marketing executive, making a six figure salary and eventual