I found this poem that I wrote during the early 2000's during a period of deep depression. I post this because it reminds me that I have experienced extreme darkness numerous times, but I haven't let it keep me down. Life does get brighter with the right treatment.
Life’s Missing Puzzle Piece
Happy- A foreign word to me.
Smile- What is that?
Laughter- I forget how.
Swallowed up by my world of darkness, sadness and depression.
Loneliness flows through my veins like poison, consuming my mind and spirit. All ALONE – floating through this life ALONE!
Numb to feelings that are pleasant. Bad is all I feel.
A wonderful life and family surround me, but I can’t find the pieces to make me whole.
I stand back and watch as a dark monster sucks the life out of me.
Tears flow knowing I can’t stop it.
There’s a good person here – somewhere, but … WHERE???
I’m not ungrateful, just lost in a deep, dark sea.
The sun will rise again in my world someday when I find the pieces to make me whole.